Found a perfect video on youtube.
i actually left the apartment and did real people things this week, aka not sit at home and pity myself. feels nice to make some real decisions and have a plan for the next few years. now all i have to do is get going. all this time i made the realistic seem impossible and the possible seem unrealistic, but now that i'm free of "the fear" i feel oddly weightless. like, "shit, that was easy." maybe they've changed. or perhaps i approached the situation differently than i normally would have. either way, grabbing life by the balls starts now!
