i wish i were new to this city. or just new in general. "i want to be a baby again. i want to be new" so i can just start over. do it right. slowly but surely i'm starting to realize that it ain't gonna happen. paranoid that people will notice if i attempt to reinvent myself and feeling too old to do so anyways. it's impossible to escape from myself. no matter where i run off to. i'm still gonna run.
off to the motherland. 10 days.