Monday, November 5, 2012

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Here Sometimes

..and of course I resort to this when things are weird or unbalanced or anything but ordinary. "I feel ordinary," said St. Vincent. So what the hell does that make the rest of us?! Anyway, after a week of chaos I finally have some space to think..not that that's a good thing. And with this emotional space I realized that the same thoughts constantly and consistently have been treading through my mind. Is this what I want and where I should put my faith? Should I wait? Is this for me? For now, I have decided so.

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

"Because you see there are millions and millions of people in New York-more people than you can possibly imagine, ever - and most of them are doing something that makes sound. Maybe talking, or playing the radio, maybe closing doors, maybe putting their forks down on their plates if they're having dinner, or dropping their shoes if they're going to bed - and because there are so many of them, all those little sounds add up and came together in a kind of burn."

Richard Yates

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

more LOMO Vail to NY

The city finally got to me last night. As I ran to catch a transfer I'm pretty damn sure some ass wipe reached into my purse and snatched my life out of there (ipod and wallet). It wasn't until the train doors had closed and was on it's way downtown that I realized what the fuck had just happened. I've spent the better part of this today sulking about it but I'm ready to get over it and move on.

I finally got a few rolls developed, or rather, my beau got them developed for me. Here's a few lomo shots from my journey from Colorado to New York City..and a few more from Pennsylvania where we went camping on 4th of July weekend.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

more. promised, to my handful of readers (if that).

Still life and self portrait project. 


Sunday, June 24, 2012

New York

I guess what it comes down to is this. It's hard to say anything about this city without either sounding like a tourist or sounding cliche. it IS one hell of a city though..

Thursday, June 14, 2012


I've been told by several different people and on different occasions that it would be beneficial to me to post my artwork, not only for display but to build confidence in receiving criticism, whether it be positive or negative.

I've never been confident enough to take the leap but I've finally decided that now's as good a time as ever, especially with the classes I'm currently taking goes.

These are some of the basics we've been working on for the last few weeks. Above : Still life, color studies, feet and hands, geometric/design concepts.

don't like em? well..
haha..just kidding :)

more to come..

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Job Hunt

As if it's not hard enough to find myself a way to make a living, I'm currently dealing with twice the stress as my boyfriend is moving to the city in T-10 days. But don't get me wrong, I'm in no way shape or form complaining. I'm currently stressing with pleasure, and just as hopeful for him as I am for myself, if not more. I've recently discovered the importance of not only networking, but just living life being nice to people, because believe it or not that shit comes around. If it weren't for the great people I've met throughout my adult life, I wouldn't be as fortunate as I now find myself. Sure, it's still a struggle, but I can't imagine where I'd be if I never put myself out there, if I never made friends with the new girl at work, if I never left that job to pursue other desires, and if I didn't give up those desires to pursue even bigger dreams. That being said, I shall shamelessly promote my boo's blog. It's time's like this that I wish I had spent more time building up a bigger social network within the blogging community, but I still believe that sometimes a little can go a long way. This may be small effort but hey, it's better than nothing right? Anywho, will someone please pay the guy for being awesome?!

Sunday, May 20, 2012


Experiencing elevated highs followed by excruciating lows, but I swear, I'm not manic depressive.
Trying to find that lovely medium that I somehow always find difficulty achieving.
Not for one second do I regret being here, but I still can't help but miss the feeling of "home."
"You do this every time," I'm told. And it's true, I do.
Down time - Something I always want when I don't have it..but having it drives me a little crazy.
Nervous yet hopeful for the near future. School in T-9 days. Love in T-12.

A few shots from my last batch. Reminiscing already..

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Colorado Outro

When my family and I moved to Colorado in 2000, my friends in California thought I was moving to a cow town in the countryside. As much as I tried to defend myself against my merciless peers, inside I despised the fact that I was going and despised even more that some areas near my new suburban neighborhood had houses on acres of worthless land with cows actually on their property. I spent most of high school loathing life, detesting Colorado, and imagining how much "better" my life would have been had we stayed in California, and if I had went to school with my friends in Long Beach. But time flew by, high school ended and the next thing I knew I was moving to the city and attending school in Denver.

"Old" people are right when they say time goes by faster and faster every year. Even as it took me 5 years to finish my undergrad and it's been 2 years now since I've graduated, it seems like just yesterday I was exploring Denver as a working student. Somewhere along the way I found myself growing with the city and with the beautiful Colorado Rockies and eventually I found that Colorado grew on me. I never realized how much I loved it here until I came back from living in Korea for 6 months. The month I was back in Denver, I literally basked in all of it's glory, attending shows, enjoying my favorite restaurants, going on bike rides and surrounding myself with the company of all the good people I've met in Colorado along the way. When winter rolled around I moved back to Vail for one more season, my last hurrah.

The end of a season feels more like the end of the year to me and of course, much like everything else, the season flew by at lightning speed. Now I find myself here, once again, reflecting on my life and where I currently stand. As of now, I hold a one way ticket to NYC on my way to continue my education at Pratt Institute. That last sentence scares the shit out of me, and with all the steps I've taken to make this all happen, I almost still don't quite believe it. At this point, I can only hope that the with support of my friends, my family and my new special someone, I'll survive in this great city.

(Or maybe I'll get trash dumped on me by Woody Allen and then get chased by a pimp. That would be sweet. The quality of this video isn't the greatest, but it's the exact clip I was looking for)

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Friday, March 23, 2012

Coincidence Consumes my Being

"There's no such thing as coincidence. When it comes down to it, everything is ordained. The goddamned Greeks called it destiny." 

-Roberto Bolano in The Savage Detectives

Thursday, March 15, 2012

RADIOHEAD one of my favorite bands of all time. I was fortunate enough to see them play and when I was there I felt as if I could have died happy the next day. They were everything I expected and more, I just wish I could have been up closer. Still, they were amazing and I was there with good company as always. I'm pretty amazed at the capabilities of my almost 3 year old point and shoot little cannon (my little camera that could). If I hold it steady enough, the zoom on it does work! Here's a few shots from the show.

On a side note.. Sometime around fall last year, Charlotte from THEFASHIONGUITAR sent me a bracelet, all the way from the Netherlands! I promised her that I'd take a few pictures of me wearing it, and I know it's super late but a promise is a promise, and I suppose it's better late than never. So, I wore it to the show and had a friend take a few photo's. Thanks Charlotte!

...and a video!(more on my youtube channel)       

the electronics in the crowd below were like stars in a digital musical galaxy. so pretty :)

Monday, February 13, 2012

Despite my lack of patience for editing, I finally finished up my half assed video. It has everything from early season riding, to park laps, to our first real powder day. Some of these shots are super random but I hope it at least gives a glimpse of what season 2 has been like. Enjoy :)

Sunday, February 5, 2012

"Your needs consume you forever
And with this lies the need to be here together"

Thursday, February 2, 2012

oh that twisted fate

(but probably that twisted tea)

It's funny how such a silly occurrence can jolt you into a reminder that the human body is a fragile, delicate organism. "Where's your kid?" I said, and with the words "there he is" in response, put me flat on my ass as I looked up to see the cause to my effect. The simple joys of sitting, the natural convenience of standing and walking, the pure bliss of sleeping has been taken away from me by this moment in time, a moment that resulted in an injured coccyx. Having to constantly sit and stand at my second job, with every shudder from the pain, I took the time to look back and analyze the root of this event. Could it have been a result of the slight arrogance in my riding, switching to switch knowing it being the simplest skill of my abilities? Could it have been my wanting to rub-in my beautiful day off riding, to a fellow, currently working co-worker? After all, I could have easily rode by with a simple hello in acknowledgment. Or was it in fact the result of all of the above combined, due to the adult beverage consumed just before this incident, ever so slightly affecting my decision making skills as well as my motor skills as I rode down? After close to 32 hours of attempting to endure the pain, my 13 hour work day within this time frame, the verdict was in and the moral was clear. Don't drink and ride. (Well, not until my ass is healed at least.)

..and then she rode, the next day.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Sunday, January 8, 2012

A Good Place

So it's been another eventful year and luckily I don't find myself as lost as I did this time last year. I've set goals and more importantly I'm making efforts to achieve them. I can proudly say that while there may be some things that I didn't get around to this past year, I've had a plethora of new experiences that have put me in a much better place than I was in at the beginning of 2011. Okay, so currently, physically, I feel like shit. I've never felt so exhausted in my entire life. I am someone who highly values one's downtime, and after having spent the entire summer barely working, the start of this season has thoroughly been kicking my ass to say the least. But mentally and emotionally I'm in a good place, and I can honestly say that I seriously don't remember the last time I've been able to say that to myself. Sure there are still plenty of unanswered questions that bounce around in my head, and yes, these questions are starting to become larger and more important as the days "slip" by, but for the first time in a long time, I don't feel the need to stress my brains out about it. However, I'm aware that all good things eventually come to an end so here I be, trying to ride this out for as long as I can, drink this shit til the very last drop.

Here's a few shots taken towards the end of the year..