..and of course I resort to this when things are weird or unbalanced or anything but ordinary. "I feel ordinary," said St. Vincent. So what the hell does that make the rest of us?! Anyway, after a week of chaos I finally have some space to think..not that that's a good thing. And with this emotional space I realized that the same thoughts constantly and consistently have been treading through my mind. Is this what I want and where I should put my faith? Should I wait? Is this for me? For now, I have decided so.